A Difficult Smile

As I sit at my desk working listening to the radio, bad news is mixed into the groovy tunes and it places my heart in a very awkward position.  How can I smile during difficult times?

The world is in extreme peril and we’re all trying to cope with the events that are reshaping what we’ve known forever.  The BLM movement (which I’m  not so much a fan of even though I’m black – that’s another blog), the increasingly rage of racial terror along with the ever-present gang related shootings, “Karen/Carl” antics and the list goes on and on…unfortunately, has our emotions on a wild roller coaster.  I feel that it’s only going to get worse before it gets better.

So…this is where I am having a problem.  Trying to stay sane, untwisted and not fall into a deep depression.  My usual go-tos are writing, music, professional wrestling (yeah, I know) crafting and comedy.  Yeah I need to laugh. Movies, comedy specials and social media comedians have been a tremendous outlet for me.  I stay away from the “news” or other formats that write about the current events and when I feel my mind being triggered to go somewhere, I don’t want it to, I do the above.  But then I sometimes feel guilty for smiling or feeling at ease when the world is being ripped apart. 

The times are making it difficult to smile.  I want to be worry free and stress less and feel safe in a world I had no choice in being born in…no one did. We all should feel safe in LIVING/BEING but many are not.  I can’t stand it.  I want the world to be in a better place.  I desire that all should live in peace within themselves and with the world-wide community.  But I know that that may not ever happen because evil does live (no matter the skin shade) and there are just way too many vessels carrying this disease.  It is what it is. 

Since we are where we are now in time and there is nothing new under the sun, I have no choice but to continue to try and put on a smile no matter how difficult it is in the world.  Someone needs to see it and hopefully, they can smile, too.

--Jewelz